This is my Story. My Experience. My Testimony. My Healing Journey.
You should not write about this. You should not talk about this : I have struggled with these voices before writing.
People will laugh at you. It’s a taboo subject. And I know it is. But let me talk about it anyway. Because during my journey, I have discovered that many people are going through mental illness.
There are even those who don’t know that they are going through mental illness, having in their minds this picture of people running on the roads when they are mentally sick: It’s not always the case.
In fact, there are different kind of mental illnesses with different symptoms.
Schizophrenia, Depression, Bipolar Disorders are some of the mental sicknesses that exist and they all have their own symptoms.
My doctor never told me the kind of sickness I had. And I never asked.
I confess I was afraid to ask and most importantly to KNOW about it.
All he told me after my psycotherapy was: You have this sickness because of the wounds you have had in the past.
But surely, I could read on the medicines I was given , the kind of sickness they were treating.
This is my Story. My Experience. My Testimony, oooh yes,my Healing Journey…
One beautiful morning… I’m not sure if I should use the word ” beautiful” because this day is part of my worst days, and surely part of my sad journey.
I was saying, one morning, I took my phone and started insulting aggressively all my closed friends telling them how fake they were to me.
It was in January of this year.
Why? Because, there were some great opportunities I was going to have and they were jealous of me.
In fact, it was not true. I was living in my own reality. Everything was happening in my mind. These opportunities never existed.
I had schizophrenia and one of the symptoms of schizophrenia is the fact that you are living in your own reality.
But , besides schizophrenia, I was also going through depression.
Some months after January, I was brought to hospital and one month after the treatment, I had totally recovered.
I have suffered a lot during this month. It was too painful for me to go through crisis after crisis. I’ve cried a lot. I’ve prayed a lot. I’ve lost some friendships along the way and I did harm to myself in so many different ways.
But today I’m thankful because God heard my prayers and He has healed me from the disease.
Do I have any issue or any shame related to the fact that I have been through mental illness? : No. I don’t have any problem or shame related to that. I don’t even have any problem to talk about this.
The fact that I’ve healed is more important than everything else.
With years and with different life’s experiences, I have learned that nothing happens out of God’s control.
With that being said, I know very well today that If I went through mental illness one day, God wanted me to know his Love, his Power and his Protection like I never did before.
“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love Him, who have been called according to His purpose ( Romans 8:28)”.
Why do you confirm so quickly that you have healed ? What if you get some crises again in the future? : I won’t. In Jesus name. Jesus has healed me FOR EVER.
Let me put an end to this blog by saying this: If it happens you know someone struggling with schizophrnia, depression, bipolar disorders , or if you are struggling yourself with this, let me tell you that it is an illness which can be treated and which can be healed as well.
But You have a big part of responsability in your healing. Be positive. Pray. Be confident in God and in You as well. YOU WILL HEAL.
The last but not the least: Learn to be patient with yourself when things don’t go your way.
During your journey, you may want to do things you love as you used to do before but you may lack concentration for instance. It is one of the symptoms of depression. Just be patient with yourself : YOU WILL HEAL.
To everyone who supported me during my journey, I say thank you from the bottom of my heart. I mean parents, siblings, aunties, uncles, cousins, and friends . This blog is a tribute for you.
I hope this piece will be helpful to someone if not, to many of you.
We keep in touch beautiful people.
May God bless you and protect you, every single day of your life.
Darlène KEZA.
Stories Behind Success 
Wooow… Très courageux, et je sais que ce témoignage aidera beaucoup de personnes.
Tu es une femme forte.
God bless u
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Merci beaucoup très chère Carole. Grand merci pour tes encouragements. May God Bless you abundantly as well.
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Very wonderful,preach and preach loud and louder 🙌🙌❤️ That’s amazing 😉
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Thank you so much Kamimi.
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Thanks Darlène for sharing your heartbreaking story. So many people are going through the same struggle but they are not aware. No one should be ashamed that he/she had mental illness. May your story be an alarm for many people.
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Thank you for all the support Patrick.
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i’m so proud of you and thank you for sharing this with us most of us are conditioned to avoid talking about mental illness like its something to be ashamed of alors k c une réalité that most people face eveyday i’m glad that kumeze neza ubu sha😘
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You’re so right dear Nardy. There are so many people going through mental illness, yet it remains a taboo subject. Thank you for all the support love😘😘😘
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Oooo Gooood M soo prouuud of u bby girl.. Pousses encore plus loin.. Dieu est bon.. Lov uuuuu ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
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Mercii bcp ma Raïssa. Love you Moore😘😘😘
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Dari,je ne sais comment te remercier. For sure, c’est Dieu qui a parlé en toi et t’a invité à partager ton histoire. Tu ne peux pas imaginer combien ça fait du bien de se rendre que l’on n’est pas seule, seule à porter cette maladie. Maladie tellement taboue au Burundi et même partout ailleurs que l’on se retrouve rejeté, sans amis, isolée, incomprise voir même haï les gens te rendant responsable de ta maladie.
Merci merci merci merci merci merci infiniment merci. Dieu te bénisses amplement.
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My pleasure dear Kiki. May God Bless you.
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Dari merci beaucoup pour ton témoignage!May God bless you abundantly..😘
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My pleasure dear Chandelle. Sending abundant Blessings on your way, as well.
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Thank you for being open-minded and share your journey to help someone. Indeed this piece is strengthening and comforting. We bless the Lord for your healing. May he amaze u more.
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Amen dear Paulette. Thanks for all the support.
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I ‘ve no word to say… your courage will inspire many of us. Thank u for sharing your story
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Most Welcome my dear. Thank you so much for the support.
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Keza dear.
Thank you for sharing your journey.
I am proud of you for not just hanging in there but coming out strong and thriving.
I am excited to witness and share in this renewed, rejuvenated self you are becoming.
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Merci Darlène pour le partage de ton experience/témoignage rassurant et invitant tous ceux qui présentent n’importe quel problème de santé mentale que c’est une maladie qui est traitée, qu’il faut juste demander l’aide d’un professional en la matière.
Dieu te bénisse et te protège
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